I blurted out

This was the first time I tasted wine in girls' night out. The night went crazy and we had double Grappa shots... AND the worst part begins now. I started crying and even blurted out that I like him. I mean all my friends know now that I like him and they are not going to be silent around him. DANG !!!

Well I never had alcohol in my life. This was the first time and I was out in just no shots. I was crying all over the city and saying I like him (I even said I like my Grandpa...Well everyone loves grandparents !!) 

I had hangover so bad that I am hating alcohol now :D :D :D

White + Brown ! Isnt a bad combo :D

Putting some random pics of white actors with brown actresses (Not being ETHNIC FANATIC here)       (-_-) Take it casually. If white is fantastic brown is exotic ;)

Some things do not matter !

All my life I grew up listening to this song . . .

Oh yes it is "Made in India, a lovely lover, I need a heart that's made in India...."

I had made this opinion that I would fall only for a guy "Made in India".

Moreover I am very religious person and knew I'd fall in love with a person who belongs to mine religion.

I was trained in cadet school and again I made an opinion that I will fall in love with a person who is in Indian army.

Now I think all my opinions drained because I fell for him. Nothing matters now.

Not my religion not his, neither my earlier opinions and aspirations. Things do not matter now. :)

You have freedom in love and that is what I understood. 

Unexpected proposal for me

Why why why why why why this :(

I'm trying to concentrate on this cute nerdy German guy and there's this another German guy proposing me.

This half German half Punjabi guy confessed his feelings for me today. :(

I feel like why do I even talk to guys. I just want myself devoted to a single guy... This is a guilty feeling for me.

Please pray I do not hurt anyone in this process of getting love for myself.

Hopefully helpfull :D

This videos by connor are awesome :D
I am freaking out these days regarding guys and their opinions and their thoughts and bla bla.
This video surely helped me out today. I am learning stuffs about guys.
Thought these videos would be helpful for you too. They are so damn funny and intellectual at the same time and Connor is cute.

Another one...

and another one...

Check other of them from his channels :)
Best luck. (I need a best luck too :D )

Oh oh !!

This is just a small thing I wanted to write.
When I was child my dad used to tell me about Germany and how great the land was.
My dad read many philosophical books and took specific interest in Nostradamus the great PREDICTOR whose predictions came true.

Papa told me about a prediction from Nostradamus: Arabs would be out to conquer entire world and would also almost defeat everyone, but there is this land...land of Germany, where in the end Arabs themselves will be defeated. So where everything ends, GERMANY  begins.

While I never wanted to come to Deutschland my dad pushed me here. Thanks papa :D
The more you love a person...the more you love his nation too :)

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas :)

All my life in Christmas I did not have any idea what to wish for. This Christmas I exactly knew what I wanted and somehow wanted to reach church so I can ask for my wish in lord's home itself.

Prayers on my lips
Happiness in my heart
Tears in my eyes
Faith in my mind
I wished on this beautiful festival,
my precious.

Next Christmas I would not be alone in this Church. Amen. (^___^)
Wish you MERRY CHRISTMAS too and may all your wishes get fulfilled. 

Not done

Now its totally rubbish !
I just searched for "Interracial Love Indian and German" and it shows only Indian guys with German girls :(
Why O lord...Why ?
Why not any Indian girl with German guy ?
I know Indian girls are not usually allowed to marry or love outside the caste but this is it.
It makes me frustated. :@ :@ :@ :@

Grrrrrrr.....!!!!! I am in a bad mood.

Stalking begins

Now I'm stalking him !
YES
I am stalking him everywhere in institute and even on internet (Germans use very less of internet for social purposes I'd say). As a result I just keep looking at him and sometimes he peeps from sides of his eyes. I hope he got a hint that I am stalking him because I want responses from him.

No changes in Facebook from past 1 year!! :( How will I stalk him on internet.
The only things I found out are that he
1. likes Tom and Jerry (oooooooooooo I love him more now :D )
2. drinks beer
3. loves nature
4. Looks super hot in shorts lol :D
5. 20th july is his Birthday (Still I do not know his age)

I would keep stalking him. On a serious mission (Mission "Cute German Guy"). Captain ME !!!!

I dont know how to say it

I accept my heart is insane
I accept I don't know how to say it
I accept my heart is insane
Please read my eyes
Cant you see it ?
In my eyes
There's only you
only you
There's only you
only you

Once met we wont get separated
Oh lord please unite us like that
My heart is scared of confessing to you
Cant you see it ?
In my eyes
There's only you
only you
There's only you
only you

Tonights' situation :(

First Move !!

Its too slow for first move.......yaaaaayyy but I talked to him.
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
I get no other expression in my mind right now. HEHE
But why do I act so stupidly when I talk with him. :D
I am like .... 

He just gave me my corrected assignments (oooh I forgot to tell that he is my tutor too in university) and I just went up to him to know why he cut my marks at certain places.
Voila ... thats it!!!
I can always converse him about my doubts in studies. I feel so wicked right now.
Discovered a new way to always stay in touch with him. Ask doubts and mind it my Geeky nerd loves solving doubts.
While he was solving my doubts I understood nothing but just listened to his voice like aaaaahhh you are so cute !
SO FINALLY I MADE HIM NOTICE ME. 

A bad bad day :(

Thinking I would tirelessly work towards making myself perfect but *sigh* ... its not easy. :(
1st day of perfecting myself and I woke up late. Missed Computer Science class and and then the next class, drank double coffee dose and did almost nothing the entire day except getting rid of few irritating people WITH AN INCOMPLETE ASSIGNMENT. *cry* *cry*

Another bad thing !! I saw my tall blonde crush only for 2 seconds. THE WORST THING !! :(
Day was full of wrong signs and depressions but I think things will get better :) I have faith

Specially when I see this wedding video of Indian wedding European :)

German guys !

I feel really very shy writing this thing but really German guys are so cute (Well I'm not generalizing here). While walking down aisles in Germany I feel like I'm walking amidst pillars. With such a tall stature German guys can even make you go insane. ah ah despite all the tallness and all those muscular features how can they be so gentlemanly (and CUTE) ?! *blush blush*

These guys genuinely help you.
They are a bit SHY! know that.
Germans (Both guys and gals) use very less of internet for social purposes I'd say
Would be continued until I study my Blonde German Crush ;)

Love can make you a better person

Oh yes,

I know right now I'm not the perfect person for my cute blonde crush but yes I can scale myself. Scale myself for better things, everyday. Better myself personally, socially, intellectually and I think I can do things better if I keep track of what things I did everyday. Maybe after sometime this blog may help you get your Tall, blonde crush ;)
(Just Kidding)
Is there anyone here who has to improve themselves to get attention of some cute guy ? :D 

Countdown begins here... I need to study hard to get attention of that fantastic looking nerdy blonde... *giggles* and oh yes lose a few pounds and start applying some girly make up...uff I don't even know how to get dressed like a female.

Finally I understood that "Falling in love makes you want to be a better person" :)

Love Just is !

Im not tall but he is,
Im not blonde but he is,
Im not white but he is,
Im not that intelligent but he is,
Would my German crush ever love this short, black haired, brown skinned, less intelligent Indian ?

Maybe inter-racial love is difficult.
I feel like there is a hope.
This makes me think LOVE JUST IS ! A song by Hilary Duff.